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         Love can be a tricky thing. We all know the definition of love? The noun of love is’ an intense feeling of deep affection. The verb of love is’ to feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone.                                                                                    They say we hurt the ones we love the most? Hum??? Is it true? But is it because when we show an overabundance of love to another, they may think that we will always accept it and always be there? That doesn’t seem too healthy to me.

      We meet someone that we take a liking to, and they to us. Things seem to be going incredible. But just when we think we have a good thing going, one of the two makes a change. They pull away; stop the pattern of texting, or calling. What they were doing is no longer in their daily agenda. But what happened?

      When we’re young and still innocent in love, and meet that person you crush on, it’s a no brainer. This is the person you want to talk to every morning and the last voice you want to hear before you close your eyes each night. You two are so in love with each other, and loving it. Your spare time is hanging out together and having fun. Your time apart is thinking of the other.

      There are two types of people. One is the one that wants that always and forever and will keep trying until they find it. The other is the type that will hop from one relationship to another. So is it from our past of broken homes? From hearing our parents fight and not wanting that. Or maybe we gotten into a bad relationship and it taints us from the broken heart that it has left us with?

      Social Media has made it easier than ever to meet people. It is giving people many options. But are we just trolling or are we taking the opportunity to actually ask someone out in hope for a relationship. I have noticed that people seem to be using this social media for entertainment for the evening? Is social media a way to pass the night away? A place where we can have fun simulating conversations without having to go out, or spend any money. But one day you will realize you are still alone. And one day you will want in a happy relationship, believe me. I have heard it so many times. When you think you are still youthful enough, to feeling someone won’t want you in person. That isn’t a good feeling at all. So how can we find what we are looking for?

      I am a hopeless romantic, and I do believe in love. I do believe there are people out there that want to be loved. And those are the people that we need to search for. Sometime if we are lucky love comes knocking on our door. And we don’t have to look very far. Sometimes love is right there in front of you, you just have to realize it. But if you are a hopeless romantic like me it’s important to have romance, fun and laughter in your relationship. If you are not in that type of relationship where that person wants to hear your voice in the morning, or be that last voice that they hear before they close their eyes, keep looking. You should hear “you look beautiful”, “you are so handsome. And these words should never get old. They should increase. “You mean the world to me”. “I don’t ever want to live without you”.

Love means’  “You are the love of my life” “I want to grow old with you”. Love means’ to be devoted to, adored and doted on.

      If you are not getting this, as hard as it may be, it may be the time to move on. You most likely will be filled with disappointment and heartache. You can accept this now, but can you accept this for the long haul? I hope the answer is no. Because you are so beautiful to me!   

                                                Love, Barbara Jeanne

PS the definition of love is from the dictionary, not me. Just saying


Let Go Of That Old Broken Relationship (make room for the new)

         Many people want to find love, feel love, and be in love. But before you can have a healthy, successful relationship, you have got to let go of your past. Let go of your past hurt. Let go of that weight that is holding you down from being happy. It is no longer necessary to have grief or sadness from a relationship you are no longer in. You two are not together for one reason or another, so why in the hell would you want to carry the pain that relationship brought unto you. And stop thinking of all the good things, the good times. They too are in the past, let it go! For goodness sakes, just stop! By doing so it will allow you to move forward and find someone who will love you, want you, cherish you as you do them.

      But before we go forward, there is one more thing that has to change. What is it? Well, you find this new person that you are really digging, you really like them, and you might even be falling in love. In fact all is going well…but BAM, you sabotage your own new relationship. How? Here comes the past creeping in your head again, and what’s worse is you are allowing it. In doing so you get confused and now you are jeopardizing you new relationship that was going so beautifully.

      You know it is so hard to find someone that is genuinely a good person.  A person who is ready for love that wants to love and be loved. Not only are they ready, but you hit gold if you find a person who is caring, loving, and not selfish. So if you are feeling so glorious about this new relationship, why would you f**k it up by letting the past take space in your head and heart.  Something productive will ok, something that was ciaos, why?

      So how can you stop this behavior? There are two ways. One is when you think of the past relationships, change your train of thinking immediately, within 28 days you should change your thought process naturally. The second one is writing down all the things that hurt you in the past relationship (or relationships). Carry this paper around and when you think of going back to the past, pull that paper out and read the crap you went through. In time (about 28 days) you will have trained your brain to see how unhappy the situation was.

      Also you can write down all the awesome things that this new relationship brings to you. Leave it someplace handy, like in your pocket, car or refrigerator and read it. You can add to the paper as your new relationship grows, continue to write down your feelings, or events. You will eventually see what the new relationship is giving, growing and the love you are receiving and hopefully you are returning as well.

      It’s so hard to find a person you really have fun with, have great chemistry and you can truly be yourself. So if and when you do I want you to be ready. You don’t want to lose a good thing because of your past. Remember in life we all walk forward, not backwards. Why? Because we are not going in that direction, that is just common sense, right???  

                                                     Love, Barbara Jeanne


Is Dating The New Commitment

Today's rules of marriage or a life time partner seems to have changed, or be a thing of the past. There is no longer life time romance or I can't live without you, for always and forever love. Actually that seems to end six months into the relationship if it is even to last that long. And if it does pass that lust and grow into love, why are couples so easy to throw in the towel? Being married doesn't seem to matter, till death do we part really means until we give up and stop trying. Could it be that old saying the grass is greener on the other side, but is it? Or are we so easy to disregard a relationship as easy as it is to stop working out or give up on that diet that we can't do. People always say it's hard to find a good woman or man, but when we do find them we seem not to want them. Are we programmed in relationships as we are as children to get bored with a toy and toss it aside for the new one? Is it men that have changed or is it women that are willing to accept less? Are men simply satisfied going to work, do their weekly agenda and seeing their love interest when they feel the need for affection, intimacy, or maybe just sex. Is dating the new commitment? Is romance dead; is it too late to bring it back? Women watch romantic movies wishing it was them, men call these movies chick flicks. So how can we get back on the same page? It might be too much to ask a man to come to our rescue as a knight and shining armor. But maybe if we women as a whole wouldn't accept anything but more, we just might get romance back in our men. I can't speak for all women just hopeless romantics like me. Barbara Jeanne xo


Are You Living or Just Existing?

         I once watched this movie The Never Ending Story, although it is a children’s movie, it left me with quite an impact. Years later still on my mind, I felt the need to pass the moral of this story on.

         In the movie the young boy was searching the land high and low in hopes of finding the big nothing to save the princess. Failing with nothing left to do, he went to the beautiful princess and said “I cannot save you; I do not know where to find the “Big Nothing”. She spoke in the most gentle voice and said “my dear child what you are looking for is inside of you. It is inside of each and every one of us. People lose themselves by not following their hopes and dreams, until one day they feel a darkness that overcomes them. Leaving each person with the feeling of emptiness, lifeless, and that my dear friend is the big nothing”.

         As children we dream of what we want to be when we grow up. Movie stars, rock star, even the president. So at what point do let go of our dreams and desires and just settle? And if people are having such a ball in life, why are so many people depressed? So this makes me wonder, and ask this question are we living or just existing.

        Growing up we are so carefree, having the time of our lives. Hanging out with our friends, our first loves. But somewhere down the line reality sets in and here were are all grown up with obligations, major decisions and with that comes pressure. Soon we realize life isn’t as fun.

         You might be blessed to have a salary making six figures, but that usually comes with greater bills or the salary where you are struggling with that job that is barely getting you by. Either way, you are chained to that job that you may or may not like. And each month those bills come rolling in like clockwork. And if we splurge to go on a trip or an outing are we playing catch up financially. That brings us back to our jobs.  

         So is life a big cycle? And if so how do we get off and start to enjoy and live again? First off let’s start simple. Do something you did as a child that you loved. And it probably doesn’t cost much because let’s face it most people didn’t roll with a lot of cash back then. Next, dream! We dream at night, why not carry our dreams at least the good ones into the day. Start dreaming with your eyes opened and maybe just maybe, you can turn some of your dreams into reality and start to live again, and not just exist.  Love, Barbara Jeanne xo



Why Love, Why Be N a Relationship?


               Relationships are taking a toll. Many people want one, but do not want to invest the time to have one. We seem more comfortable being on media sites for entertainment. People only seek out a real person when the need intimacy. This is usually when ones is feeling down, or feels they want that feel of a human body.

           So what is happening? People hop online and troll the internet until they find who they want to chat for the evening. Or they might have a few they are juggling. When the night is coming to an end we say our goodnights. But some before doing so take time to pleasure themselves. (Sorry so Bold) Others wait until they are alone and fantasize of whom they were talking to or not. So what we have is what our brain is telling us, that we had an evening of stimulating conversation with the opposite sex. It is everything you might get on a date but it was free. You didn’t have to leave the comforts of your own home, and you weren’t let down by the fantasy of who you think this person is.

            Am I saying something we all don’t know? Absolutely not, and this goes for both guys and gals. Guys think “I don’t have to spend the money, or leave the comforts of my home”. While girls think, “I don’t have to shave and get all done up”. Some people are actually okay having people think they are something they are not.

            So with this we are losing intimacy, which is something so important to flourish in life. You might be fine alone, and it might be okay now. But seeing people I know grow old alone literally breaks my heart. Unless you have the money to travel abroad alone (sounds fun) then it’s something to think about. Years sneak up quickly; you may feel young and vibrant now, but you may not in a few years. And then what will be your plan then? When everyone you know gets old, are we going to become the Golden Girls or the Golden Boys? The thought might be ok, but in the show “The Golden Girls” even they were looking for Mr. Right.

              Bottom line, it’s your life to choose, but I love to come home to someone, or they come home to me. I love to laugh with someone and be silly in person. I love the touch and feel and have contact of a person daily.  And I want to look forward to growing old and going to the early bird specials holding hands. That to me is awesome! Love, Barbara Jeanne xo