Justin's Happiness

    I see so much old footage of Justin laughing, happy, loving life. At some point, he lost the thrill of being on stage. Partying and women seem to be his main priority. Something in that magical life that he was given wasn't satisfying him any longer. As a result, he became completely reckless. Not only was he partying like a rockstar, but he seemed to be trying to deaden the depression that was creeping in. He was not only reckless with himself, he was reckless with the people who he loved. He was reckless with the women that he chose for the night, week, or the flavor of the month. Around this time, he started getting himself into a bit of trouble with the law. People who at one time thought he was so talented started a petition to get him deported out of the U.S. and back to Canada.

     Around this time he was finally realizing that he needed to get his shit together. So who does he go to? That's an easy answer, his long-time girlfriend Selena Gomez. You can say she was a horrible person, a drug addict, a user, anything you like. Our personal opinions have no bearing on the feelings of a man who knows her personally, intimately. It actually doesn't matter anymore really, or does it? I think it absolutely does. I think Justin's marriage has one too many people in it, and one of the two is making Justin quite unhappy. I think that Justin doesn't wear his wedding ring because to him it's a symbol of matrimony. And from what I hear he feels as if his marriage to Hailey is fake. He now knows all of the deceitful schemes they pulled to get him down the aisle to say "I Do". He will stay miserable until the charade ends. He makes a point to show it.

It seems worth pointing out, many fans have noticed that after 2018, that Justin has seemed to turn into himself more and lose that vivaciousness he was known for. He doesn't seem to care for his fans like he did in the past. He seems sickly and sad. On the other side of the argument, fans insist Justin is happier than ever. We see him looking down because he's tired of the speculation on his marriage and tired of fame. His previous relationship broke him while his marriage healed him. He is riddled with trauma and illness. I would argue that his romantic life and personal life had more speculation before his marriage. He has more privacy than ever. Who he was or wasn't dating was hot news. His latest antics were always plastered in the headlines. It used to be that he could not go out without being literally mobbed by fans and photographers. Now he has a few camera phones recording from a distance and five or six hired paparrazzi. Fans are not likely to approach him these days. Most of the headlines we get are positive, although generic. Justin is working less than ever, but spending less time with family than ever. In spite of his trauma he was still able to find pockets of joy and reasons to flash a genuine smile often. I think after he got married, he had a lot of time to sit and think about the mistakes and choices that he has made in his life. He has feelings of both guilt and regret. Those feelings mixed with the feeling of being robbed of the happy marriage and family he thought he would have, and the weight of living a lie has contributed to the solemn Justin we see today. In what some fans say were his darkest times, we still saw some of the most genuine smiles.

  I asked his close friend if there was anything that would make Justin happy, and he first said he didn't know. Then he thought about it for a moment and said... "Selena and a baby, he really wants to be a father". But I don't see that happening anytime soon. So what makes Justin happy now? Looking at old pictures and videos of him and Selena. Their love showed and flowed, you can't deny that they loved each other extremely and deeply. I know that they can't be together right now because... duh, he's a married man. But I do know 💯 that he dreams and thinks frequently what his life would be like to be with Selena and have a baby with her. This is the girl he talked about having children with at an early age, not Hailey.  He brought Selena home to his family and his siblings, something he did not do with Hailey. And it wasn't once or twice, it was many times. 

     So why did Justin keep going back to Selena? Because from the day he met her, he always considered her his rock, his home. Justin says that it was Selena that taught him about life. And he always assumed that when he said "I Do" it would of been with her. Having years to contemplate he realizes he stays firm in that. The day he said "I Do" to Hailey, he called Selena right after their courthouse ceremony and asked would she take him back. He said that he made a huge mistake. Selena said no, the damage was done. From that day forward he never was the same, although at one point he did actually try with Hailey. But that is long over. 
Thank you for reading. Much Love as Always♥️

Written by: Barbara Jeanne Administrator: Ki💐